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Feeling Like My Emotions

I have a habit of writing because it feels good to express myself in such a different and unique way. But it just so happens that I will bury my emotions in thoughtful poetry.

Emotion

tear out my heart
for the world to see
don’t leave me laying here
my emotions will flee

in a field a lonely tree
I sit and think
all that I can be
dreams dancing through the skies

a clear blue reflects me
a hidden secret lies within
i hear a plea
a small and fragile cry

Lullaby

I’ll shut my mouth
With a needle and thread
I’ll silence my thoughts
With a blow to the head

Words flow out
Like the blood in my veins
Tears in a river
From the hurts and the pains

Listen and hear
Our mistakes and the choice
In a lullaby
Somehow I’ll hear their voice

Forward

to think no one will care
no one will miss a single hair
you’re lonely in a crowd
and there’s no way to be proud
 
take a step back
and don’t forget to pack
carrying all of your worry
as you leave in a hurry

brush aside love and a smile
it’s been gathered into a pile
you see a face
but can’t focus at this pace
 
forward everyday
and you can’t find a way
scared of the unknown
so you hide, frightened and alone
 
searching and hoping
there has to be a way of coping
of making it past
and being the one to outlast

a power and strive
a realization to feel alive
the wants and desires
encompass me as they’re all liars

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Still Finding My Grit

Grit. The perseverance passion for long-term goals. In freshman year of high school, I played one of the leads in Guys and Dolls. I had a moment during a performance that I wanted to sing, act, and dance for the rest of my life on Broadway. I had taken countless voice lessons and prepared myself for auditions.

 

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Playing Marcy in The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee | 2017, Ivan Melnikov

 

I pushed myself to be a better dancer in the show choir I was a part of, though not having taken a real dance class in years. I was on the right track. I had two scheduled auditions for Musical Theatre programs at two universities. What could go wrong?

 

What if I am not good enough? Other’s will have taken many more classes and lessons than I have. Will I embarrass myself at the auditions? I’ve never memorized a monologue before. What I’m not really a strong actor?

I was exhausted before even attending a single audition, but something else happened to me in high school. My marching band and show choir performed at Walt Disney World. I marched down Main Street USA in with my color guard and band behind me. It was the most exciting moment of my life (so far). We attended workshops for singing and color guard and saw some of the behind the scenes magic. We were adding to the magic that is Disney. I wanted to be a part of it. I wanted to work for Disney.

 

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Scooby Doo and Scrappy at Six Flags New England

 

So I looked into how I could make my dream a reality. I started working for Six Flags New England in the Entertainment department. It was such a rewarding job, helping out Looney Tunes and Scooby Doo. All the happy guests were the icing on the cake. Nothing was cuter than watching young children run up and hug Bugs Bunny or Scooby Doo. I loved my job.

I ended up at a technical institute, with two killer theatre clubs, as well as a choir, and five a cappella groups. I had found my calling for both performing and science. Everything sounds good, right? Not exactly. I did not know what I was going to major in. I still don’t even know what I want a career in. From a passion for music to a love of the environment, I really can’t pinpoint any one thing I want to do for the rest of my life, but if it involves making people smile I would be pretty okay with that. I still need some work making those long-term goals, but I’m taking one day at a time.

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EduVentures and 8th Graders from Okondjatu Combined School in Namibia | 2017

 

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Saturday Mayhem

Today has been all sorts a fun and funny. I went out with the roommate to shop. I ended up locking my keys in my car. We waited an hour for AAA to arrive while it was raining. When the rain started to let up we saw a rainbow!!

So we finally get into my car and drive home. At home we clear off the drink shelves to replace with a new shelf unit! I am emptying a bottle that leaked and my roommate hear, ‘thum, POP!”.

The beer bottle exploded and I burst out laughing.

The Environment

Typical Florida Weather

As I am driving home from a sound meditation class I noticed lots of lightning in the distance. It looked so cool! Then I realised that the storm was moving faster than me and next thing I know I am watching from my porch. I quickly grabbed my camera to try and capture something in the storm. Although it’s not a lightning strike I still love the colours in the unedited picture.OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

I used my Olympus Pen E-PL7 | f/3.5 | 1/80s | ISO-1600 | 14mm

Stories

Introduction

“Is he following us?” I stammered out of breath.  The cool, crisp air was some how hard to swallow.

“I hope not,” Alicia replied gasping for the same clean air.

We had run almost two miles and down into the alley.  We weren’t sure where the secret tunnel went but we had no other choice.  Alicia and I were terrified.  From head to toe, we were covered in bruises and cuts.  The fog had begun to clear but a slight mist took its place.  The black hole of the end of the alley was horrifying, but Alicia and I had no other place to hide.  My leg stung as I bumped into garbage bins.  The red liquid ran down my leg and soaked into my sock.  The air was so icy that it sent goosebumps up our arms.

“We’re trapped!” Alicia screamed.  “There’s no way out!”

We could see our breath even in the darkness of the alley.  Then as a figure appeared holding a dagger, we screamed out of fear.  We knew who it was but couldn’t believe it was him.

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“Stop the story!  Rewind.  This is not the beginning!” I hollered.

“I think it’s a great start,” Patrick announced.

“Who made you the editor?” I muttered.  “Nobody knows what’s going on.  That’s the problem”.

“Then why don’t you explain, Abby?” Alicia queried.

“Fine, I will.  To start my name is Abby Sulsven.  I am a senior at the Philadelphia High School for the Creative and Performing Arts.  My best friend is Alicia Newman and we met Patrick Claire in junior high.  Our story starts on the last day of school, June 19”.

“I’m Patrick…um well, I hate my last name because it’s a girl’s name.  I like to think I don’t have a last name because I am a detective,” Patrick squealed like a little Chihuahua.

“Only in your dreams,” Alicia said rolling her eyes.

“Ahem! May I continue?!” I requested impatiently.

“Yup!”

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Following the Road Across Bridges

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I started out last summer on a road trip with my mom. We left Connecticut and were Florida bound because I was about to start my first summer internship at Universal Orlando Florida. Along the ride, I took a picture whenever we passed over (or rather under) a bridge. At the time I only had my phone and thought that editing the picture in black and white looked pretty cool. There was something about each bridge that fascinated me. The design. The architecture. The lines. It was all just really neat to look at.

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We made it to Orlando, Florida and I started my internship at Universal in the unlikely field of horticulture. I had no idea what to expect but man was I excited! I immediately started learning botanical names from a list of over 200 names.

Fast forward to May 2017. I am once again driving to Florida! I got to see so many bridges again as I ventured once again to Universal Orlando Resort for another summer internship with the same amazing people. I really am thrilled to know such great people and work in a place that is universally accepting, motivating, and beautiful.

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First blog post

I am starting a blog again! I am thinking this will be a great place to recognize that nature has always been an incredible and special part of my life. I will get to showcase what I know and the pictures I take while traveling. Feel free to stick around for the ride!

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Visiting Kirstenbosch Botanical Gardens, Cape Town, South Africa on 9 March 2017 | Katie Pelissari

I had a breathtaking experience visiting the Kirstenbosch Botanical Garden in March. I went on a guided walking tour and was in complete awe. There were so many unique flowers and even an aerial walkway. The backdrop of Table Mountain was something I have never seen. I thoroughly enjoyed my day. My friends thought I was crazy as I blurted out botanical and common names everywhere.

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Protea cynaroides, Olympus Pen E-PL7, M.Zuiko 14-42mm f3.5-5.6 II R
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Erica verticillata, Olympus Pen E-PL7, M.Zuiko 14-42mm f3.5-5.6 II R
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Pink flowers, Olympus Pen E-PL7, M.Zuiko 14-42mm f3.5-5.6 II R